| Talk To Me |
[Nov. 26th, 2009|07:31 pm] |
| [ | I'm feeeling |
| |  crappy | ] |
| [ | Jukebox |
| | Mr Brightest - Marty Casey | ] |
I was looking through old memories and I came upon Marty Casey. Oh man those days, I wished I was at the gig/performance to watch him live. He's awesome. Beside Myles R. Kennedy , I love Marty Casey's voice. Though the quality of the video above suck pretty badly, but who cares?
Muse
Saosin
Rise Against
The Killers
I'm grateful that this doesn't happen at Os. Thank God. |
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| Grounded Thoughts |
[Nov. 25th, 2009|11:25 am] |
| [ | I'm feeeling |
| |  awake | ] |
| [ | Jukebox |
| | Uprising - Muse | ] |
It's no surprise that one act that way. It's a usual habit that people around her should get used to it. Apparently, I did. But not for all, there was one who didn't. A desire that she, herself probably want but not the rest. A desire to enter a dangerous scene she, herself cannot handle. A desire to do things she, herself wants to do. Maybe that's not what the rest wants. Maybe that's what one wants. One can't blame the rest for not wanting to go with her and belong in the same world with her. There was another, who was always there for her but she couldn't be bothered. She didn't even want to take a second look before accusation starts. She was stubborn but yet put the blame on others. It's she herself who wants it not the rest. Sometimes the world might be like that and the only thing I can say, Live With It. The lonely one thought help was needed and got help just the way party queen wants. But so, loneliness felt like help was all fling went party queen couldn't handle relationships. Betrayed? Selfish? Words party queen could think of to describe herself. Though party queen and lonely one were good friends, sometimes, lonely one feel like strangling party queen. For no particular reason but just for that reason. Sometimes, party queen can be fucking irritating and want things to go her way. Party queen ain't leader, no one is. Like I've said, if they disappeared, Live With It. If they want things to be back like usual, they will come crawling back. |
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| Only meant for KHQ |
[Nov. 22nd, 2009|08:45 pm] |
| [ | I'm feeeling |
| |  determined | ] |
If you're not named KHQ, don't bother reading.
I just have lots of things to tell you right at this moment and before I forget, I just want to make sure that I pen it down so I won't forget
I don't know what he means to you. Yes, he might have taken up a huge space in your heart, but for me, he had taken all of mine. I know that the broke-down was bad enough, but to me, it means a lot to me. You have no idea how much I could really wish those ideas and dreams of mine could be real at this moment. I'm all confused and mixed up with emotions and feelings. Reality I must say has gotten control of my life. I don't know what is real and not real. I don't know where I belong or stand anymore in the world. It is that bad till I'm lost. I'm lost of words, I'm lost of emotions and I've lost to him. Everything that I could trade, everything that I could do and everything that I could give up for, I would, for trading positions with him. I'm really vexed about it. I've cried so badly, never in my entire life did I and I'm sure this means a lot to you too. I really wanna do something for the boys. I cannot help but to leave them suffering like that. Be it J or the rest of the boys, I cannot take it anymore. This is worst that rolling down by bed watching J departs. It's thousand and one times worst. I'm really at my wits. I cannot hold any longer that I really want to book an air ticket to wherever they are. Please be in this with me? I really need someone to be there for me and you've always been there. I'm gonna take a huge leap from here and I want to know that they are okay. I'm worried, I'm nervous and I'm lost. Those tears that were flowing, they were real hot droplets of water coming out. I can feel it from where I am, even if it's miles away from where they are. Their voices also make me very depressed. I'm not sure if I had felt this way before, but it's definite that I've never felt like this to anyone, and I mean, anyone before in my entire life. I totally understand the meaning of 'Your Heart Sank'. My heart feels so heavy that I'm starting to think I'm out of love. Is this Love that is occurring to me? Remember the dreams and goals that I told you before that not all my friends know about it. I'm going to make it real. For the boys, for myself, for J and for him. I'm going to strive the best in my life and make sure that I won't regret choosing this road ever. I'm going to make it happen so fast that I'll send your regards soon to them. Trust me and believe me in this please, I really need someone to be there for me, just for this one. I know not all my friends will do it, I just need you to be the one. Please, let's just say, I beg you. Trust me in this please? I really wanna do it for them. My heart is broken so badly that I think it's never gonna be mended again, until J's arrival back.
I'm determined for this once. I'm going to be responsible for once. I'm counting on your support and me.
'They all shared a happiness that wasn’t really happiness.'
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