| We are not happy neither are we loving. |
[Feb. 6th, 2010|06:44 pm] |
I prayed to God for help every night until I slowly gave up on faith and hope. I'm giving up God, are you hearing? I'm giving up this time. I really can't take the pressure of this anymore. I know you created me for a reason here, to handle problems thrown at me, but for this, I really cannot do it any longer. God, I'm sorry and I'm really giving up this time. I lost my faith and hope in entrusting my life and blank in you, but every night, yet again, my prayer doesn't seem to be answered. I pray hard and truthfully each time, deep down in my heart that desperate soul. I know I'm been a bad child to you for disregarding you like this, but I'm really on the verge to going crazy and end my life.
Help me.
Save me.
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| The world is small. |
[Feb. 1st, 2010|12:44 pm] |
| [ | I'm feeeling |
| |  awake | ] |
| [ | Jukebox |
| | Replay - Iyaz | ] |
Apparently, hardcore readers can blame Apple for producing a wonderful gadget, Iphone. Currently, it's stuck in my life and now I can't live without it.
Life has been great I guess, it's pretty much the same with me finding a job, hanging at the usual spot and going out thinking I've lots of money to spend. Haha, that's how life has been for me.
2010 isn't that bad as I thought it would be. But it will probably get worse by the end of April. I'm suppose to be meeting C for lunch and I'm staring at my phone because I think she reach already, while me, still typing this useless sentence which I guess nobody will read anymore.
But till then, find me on twitter. |
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[Jan. 22nd, 2010|12:46 pm] |
I always believe that I'm strong enough and that nothing will not be in place as long as I'm willing to solve the matter. But there's always one problem that I couldn't solve because I know I'm not strong enough.
I always thought that believing and putting your heart into the matter whole-heartedly, will make you feel good and that other people will look upon you and give enough respect you deserve. But there's always one problem that I couldn't bring myself to.
For I know, each time I try my best to think of it and solve it myself, tears just start forming by themselves.
And for each time I try my best to solve it, it doesn't go any where because I failed again and again
Moreover I've been put in charge to solve it and it doesn't always go my way.
I prayed so hard to the man above me as he watch my every move every second.
Like the times I cried in bed because no one notices it
'You will make a difference in people's life' I doubt so.
My throat feels so tight that I can't hardly swallow my saliva.
My nose keeps running as I try to breathe.
My hands are shivering even if I'm controlling it.
My tears are still flowing, and how can I stop it?
Read between the lines if you can pick anything out.
If you can, you're truly a friend. |
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