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[Sep. 19th, 2010|09:44 pm] |
I'VE MOVED.
My Chatbox is so empty and pathetic.
I can't stand to look at it so clean.
So if you're feeling nice,
head over to the other side,
leave a comment,
and don't ever lie.
I only have 4 entries
just so you know,
But i'm going to have more,
as time goes by.
I love to read my friends' blogs,
be it livejournal, tumblr or xanga
And if you want to read mine, (I hope you do)
please go:
www.bluetintedheadlights.blogspot.com
and be nice.
Loretta
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[Mar. 14th, 2010|09:25 pm] |
| [ | I'm feeeling |
| |  accomplished | ] |
Today, there were thousand and one stuff on my mind.
To begin with, I realized I don't talk to many of my friends, anymore. Work is an excuse, it has always been. I don't know what's the reason, we just stop communicating. If any of you actually read this, then I think I should be glad? But I'm not at all. Because I feel this livejournal is just another way of communicating to you all when I can actually message or call anyone up. So I guess the distant is permanent. I said it before, when our new life starts, I'll be the first to leave. So I've live up to my words because I know, I never really exist or rather, I was never supposed to be part of anything.
The next thing, I know my friends' birthdays are all coming and I know I was the biggest loser to stay away from all the wishes. But it never seem to affect anyone in any way, so I'll just stick it this way. If I've missed anyone's birthday, my wishes to you are always here but they just don't come straight from my mouth. You have to know that somewhere out there, I'm behind a pillar watching you guys having fun. Boo Radley it might sounds like, but maybe you all will be happier with me leaving.
The third thing, past events has been coming back all to me. I have no one to confide this about but just keep it in again. I really don't know what to do about it because it's making me confused. Most of you know that my last relationship was quite screwed up and I never thought it would come running back to me. Miracle as it may seem but this miracle is pretty scary.
And to continue with life, people keep asking me where I'm heading now. I'm telling you nowhere and I don't plan to tell anyone till anything is confirm. It's no a big deal for me though but I would rather keep it low because then no one can find me. For me, I've experience many things within this few months and I'm glad I actually did. I'm tired from everything and all the dramas, so I'm putting a full stop to it.
I'm leaving to a place only strangers will recognize me,
I'll look out of the window, and see the small island I used to live.
I'll won't be coming back because memories are haunting,
To see friends are happy the way they are,
I shall not disturb and rest wherever my feet brings me to.
Till then, maybe few years down the road, I'll bump into anyone somewhere else.
My letter started with Dear Jay,
and I'm writing till I'm bleeding.
To a place a poor innocent boy went to,
I'm finding him there and live my life where,
I'll be happy knowing he's safe.
To Seattle,
Bye World. |
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[Feb. 28th, 2010|07:17 pm] |
| [ | Jukebox |
| | If We Meet Again - Timbaland Feat. Katy Perry | ] |
I learn something rather big today.
That we should never belittle anyone be it parents, friends or fans.
Because they are the ones who build us, make us and create us.
And they can also be the ones who destroy us, break us and torment us.
This conference that they had was much of a 'fire-starter' that created things to be this ugly. The faith and hope is now gone by the other members who officially killed the little 0.01% hope of thousand and ones of other people, including me. He once said 'If you wish to live, you will die. If you wish to die, you will live.' but apparently, this sentences has come to no use because they turned their back against someone so special, someone so talented and someone so innocent. For his innocence is perfect, there was also something in him that Jealously has brought others to find faults in him. They were once so innocent, so true and never afraid to show their true characters and true personality. But now, they're nothing close to words like those.
Everyone make mistakes. No one is this world can say that they never ever made one. I'm pretty sure that most of us, people learn from our mistakes and never want to make it happen again. But maybe some mistakes aren't that easy to forget because damage has already taken place.
Whatever is happening in this circle, all I can say is that they brought this themselves. For being so cocky and proud, for thinking that surviving themselves are more important compared to helping others to survive, this is what they deserved. For all the love I had, for all the faith and hope I shared among others, I'm glad that it's finally coming to the end. |
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